Tyler, this was wonderful! I find it's a strange juxtaposition of maturity and childlike wonder. Most of the time, I feel young and carefree, until the precise moments when I realize I'm the one that has to be the adult. I could say there was a line I'd crossed when my son was born (10 days shy of my 36th birthday), but I actually became…
Tyler, this was wonderful! I find it's a strange juxtaposition of maturity and childlike wonder. Most of the time, I feel young and carefree, until the precise moments when I realize I'm the one that has to be the adult. I could say there was a line I'd crossed when my son was born (10 days shy of my 36th birthday), but I actually became more playful in the wake of his birth and in direct response to him, although I had more responsibilities. I could say it was when my dad died 3 years ago and the full gravity of no longer having a parent to reach out to for guidance, made the realization that I'm now the family matriarch so much more real. But, until there are responsibilities to handle, and I do handle them, I want to maintain my childlike wonder, playfulness, and joy as my baseline. I believe the two coexist, although I definitely have those moments when I'd like to defer my responsibilities just because...
Juxtaposition is the best way to describe this place, this position. Perhaps it's the coexisting that is the thing, that it'll always be this way. Maybe there is peace in this.
Tyler, this was wonderful! I find it's a strange juxtaposition of maturity and childlike wonder. Most of the time, I feel young and carefree, until the precise moments when I realize I'm the one that has to be the adult. I could say there was a line I'd crossed when my son was born (10 days shy of my 36th birthday), but I actually became more playful in the wake of his birth and in direct response to him, although I had more responsibilities. I could say it was when my dad died 3 years ago and the full gravity of no longer having a parent to reach out to for guidance, made the realization that I'm now the family matriarch so much more real. But, until there are responsibilities to handle, and I do handle them, I want to maintain my childlike wonder, playfulness, and joy as my baseline. I believe the two coexist, although I definitely have those moments when I'd like to defer my responsibilities just because...
Juxtaposition is the best way to describe this place, this position. Perhaps it's the coexisting that is the thing, that it'll always be this way. Maybe there is peace in this.