
Thirteen years and two days ago, I found a typewriter in an antique store. Golden Girls is a rarity in a downtown Helena filled with random businesses, most that don’t last more than a year or two with the fickle nature of a small town and its ever shifting proclivities. It remains, while so many others have come and gone over the years, it remains a little yellow beacon on the corner across from the Post Office, and in truth, I would imagine 80% of the products inside have been there all along.
I remember stumbling into there, one chilly day at the end of March when it felt much more Winter than it did “almost Spring.” I remember carrying a used book I’d just found in the bargain bin down the road at Aunt Bonnie’s Books, another stalwart that has refused to fold despite the changing of the times. I saw her sitting there, right near the entrance up on top of a jewelry case, and I remember thinking “I wonder if there is still ink on the ribbon?”
I tore out the blank page before the title page on that book, a book I bought to make blackout poetry with, and risking getting asked to not touch, I cranked it in.
I’ve spoken at great length about what came next, how I just started typing, without thought, without editing, without even a whisper of forethought, and a poem fell out. THE poem fell out. The poem that would become Typewriter Series #1, only I didn’t know it at the time. The poem that would, more than almost anything else, change my life.
The way it felt to write without any hope of editing, without a backspace key, without spell check or the ability to swap lines around, erase them, change a thought at all, was liberation to my strange Autistic brain. It felt good. Really, really good.
I bought the typewriter. A late 1930s Remington Rand Seventeen that probably weighs 40lbs and meant I’d have to haul it around downtown back to my car. It was big, it was dusty, it had cobwebs inside the keys and the hammers, and it smelled like oil and time and words. It was perfect.
I started writing a new unedited, completely unfiltered poem every day after that. Once a day stuffing old book paper from books destined for the landfill, I’d stand and I’d pour it out. Whatever it was. It was for me, and at first I had not a single inkling of the idea to ever share them with anyone, ever. Lady G swooped in and changed that, and in the process, the rest of my life.
She suggested soon after that I scan the poems in, that I save them, that I post them to Instagram, despite at the time it being completely dedicated to the over-filtered snapshots of random people’s lives. I remember thinking that no one posted poetry on Instagram, no one wanted to read these strange little poems that fell from me. “They will,” she promised. And in a “if you build it, they will come,” Field of Dreams moment, I decided to try.
As usual, she was right.
The snowball started to pick up steam slowly at first but then kind of dropped down the cliff and really started to howl. People everywhere started reading, started sharing, started wanting more of them. In what can only be explained as happenstance, luck, and being the only one doing it at the time, things kind of blew up. I decided to sell signed prints (something I’m still doing today, though so few buy nowadays) and within the first two months, had sold almost $25,000 worth, shipping them all over the world and recording every order manually on a notebook.
In another turn of happenstance, one day whilst shipping the orders out at the Post Office right across the street from Golden Girls, a newspaper reporter for the Helena Independent Record was standing behind me. They heard the postman asking where this batch of poems was heading (they knew me pretty well by that point) and asked what deal was. A few weeks later, they ran a story on it.
A few celebrities becoming fans, a lot of luck later, and somehow I had a literary agent (the amazing Rachel Vogel that still represents me today) and three major publishers competing with one another to publish my very first book, Chasers of the Light.
I still cannot understand how, or why, or any particular reason that all of that happened, but I know it unlocked the rest of my life. The rest of Sarah and I’s life together. It’s sent us on book tours all around the world, it’s introduced us to thousands of people in hundreds of places, some we still call friends and family to this very day. It helped us book more weddings with people that began as fans of my writing, it’s helped us to travel to them, to share their special days with them, to follow up years later and photograph their new children as they added them to the family.
All we’ve done, all we’ve seen, honestly, because of that first poem in that antique store 13 years ago.
Poetry unlocked our lives, it graced us with the opportunities that I truly do not know would have come otherwise. I think 99% of success is luck, as talent is never, ever, an indication or predictor of actually succeeding. Some of the most insanely talented people I’ve ever met still haven’t been given the ridiculous opportunities that I have (I’m looking RIGHT AT YOU
) and I cannot find the logic in that. I can be thankful, I can count all my lucky stars that somehow, some magic how, this happened to me, but I still cannot make sense of it.I don’t know what will come from here, I do know that since that day 13 years ago, social media has been completely overrun with people doing precisely what I do, often stealing my actual words in the process, and I know the market is saturated. I know too that not everyone wants to hear from yet another straight white male poet, even if this one is neurodivergent and bizarre and intensely prolific in his output in a way that he cannot even control.
I do know I have another book of poetry coming out in the Fall of 2025, and I do know I am very, very excited for it. I do know I’ll need your support in a way I’ve never needed it before, that the more of you that choose to pre-order it will directly control if I ever get to publish another book again. I have big ideas for it, I want to show the world that the words that fall from this bizarre brain still have a place, that poetry still has a place, and that though things have slowed down, they haven’t stopped here. That our life still has some twists and turns ahead, and that there is still so much I see, that I want to show to you.
For now, I just want to say thank you. Thank you to all of you for these thirteen years of joy, of wanderlust, of magic. Thank you for reading the poetry I write, for reading these essays, thank you for upgrading your subscriptions and helping keep this place alive, I could not have done it, I could not be doing it, without you.
Bottom line, take the chances, take the risks, buy the typewriters, write the poems. You never, ever know what is waiting around the very next corner for you, you never know what’s coming. Be there when it does, be there when time catches up and you fall right into the loving arms of that 1% that gets graced with luck.
You never know. You just never know.
Thank you, for 13 years of magic.
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Ancient typewriter
and a blank sheet of paper.
My whole life began.
Happy thirteen years of sharing the thoughts inside your beautiful brain with the world. I've been following you for a lot of years, though if I'm honest I don't know how many, but you always strike the right cord with everything. Maybe the universe just knows that those specific words are what I needed to hear? You are loved and appreciated and I'm happy to be a supporter of you and your dreams.
Ahh sometimes this brain does NOT feel beautiful haha. Most times. It means worlds that you find it so, that you show up, that you participate, that you enrich this place with the spirit of You. You are loved, so very, and I hope you know this.
Wow! Tyler, I Love this story of cause and effect. It really gives perspective not to just the physical typewriter, but how you mentally react to the world around you. The act of creating something new is not exclusive to the catalyst, but includes all the experiences of life up to that point which influence your reaction. And that, in itself, is precious.
I was just reminiscing yesterday with my partner about old poems created almost thirty years ago, and the events which inspired them. It’s not so hard to remember the exact moments that led me to create them. These were and are not created in hopes of fame/fortune but in response to a thought, an event, an emotion… with a desire for expression and in response to a need to create. They are precious not in terms of value to others, but like family, in terms of the emotional reward to have and hold them in your heart.
For example, I still get emotional about a poem ( a haiku story of sorts) written nearly ten years ago, just two days after my partner had a major stroke and was laying in a coma at the hospital. Just looking at it now brings back powerful emotions of the time AND gratitude of today.
I appreciate you and how much you share with us on this blog about your creative process. Signal Fire is such an appropriate title for this community. Looking forward to continuing support of your work.
Here is the poem I noted above…
Calendars do lie (2015)
Subtitle: There is always hope
Calendars do lie
They assure many future days
Life gives no promise
Hope springs eternal
If you forget fear and time
The waters will flow
Mountains do not move
But hands and feet do wonders
One rock at a time
A light in the dark
Casts no shadows only hope
If you turn to it
I am here today
I am the glue that ever binds
An unbroken bond
Where we hang our hat
Can’t always be the same spot
Find another nail
Walk with me a while
A short while or a lifetime
One step is progress
Where we want to be
Is not always where we are
So we carry on
Life gives no promise
But grants us all, strength and will
There is always hope
"Life gives no promise," is such a beautiful, melancholy, and astute observation and truth. It truly doesn't. Never would I have imagined the adventures a book of poetry would have given us, never would I have imagined this life. What a thing. You write why I write, to express the unexpressable within, and I Love that. You can feel it here, we can all feel that From you here, and it's worth everything in the world.
Happy 13 years! I can still picture your poems on one of the early Instagram layouts, before multiple photos or reels were allowed. I still have screenshots of poems going all the way back to 2013 and was so excited to get your first book with the signed print of a typewriter, and how the excitement carried to all of the books you’ve published that have a home on my shelf. I even read one of your poems at my dad’s funeral, and later ordered a signed print that hangs on my wall in my home. Thank you for being you, for sharing your words, you’ve touched so many lives 🤟🏼
Gosh what a weird nostalgia looking back on the first days of Instagram, when it was all new and I was the only weirdo posting poetry there hahaha. It's overrun now. As for the poem you read at the funeral, if you wanna email me your address, I'd love to send you a signed copy of it if you don't have one already. Thank you. So much.
It really is! Thank you so much, I did actually order a signed print of it not too long after but I do appreciate the offer!
Wow 13 years. I had to get on the ‘gram to check, and it turns out I’ve been following you most of that time. Back when you could just make a few clicks and regram a post, I shared a few. Back then I assumed you were well established and had been doing it for years. Glad I found you when I did. I look forward to reading your posts on here and hope it continues for many more to come. (This is as close to social media as I get anymore) I will definitely be preordering your next book. Cheers to many more 🥂❤️
That is so magic, and so amazing, and so appreciated. Truly. Cheers to you being here, cheers to all that's coming.
Echoing many of the sentiments already shared today, happy thirteen years! I truly hope lucky 13 is a year full of magic, wonder, and success for you and Lady G. Know that the words shared (and time needed) are so appreciated. I’m happy to have found Chasers of the Light, albeit many years late, and even happier that it lead to this rad community. It truly is something of wonder, to look back with what we know now and see exactly which of the moments we thought so small played such large roles in the life we lead. Looking forward to where year thirteen of this journey winds, and very excited for the new book!
13 is always lucky, so I think this will be too! It means so much to hear things like this, very truly, that the words, the messages, the life I share resonates in some way with wonderful people like you. Thank you for being here, and for the steady knowledge it gives me that you'll be here in the future, too.
Thoughtful words of encouragement! I found your poetry on Instagram at around poem 300 and have been following along ever since! What a ride.
300 means you're a VERY early adopter! Within the first year! Did you ever go back and read the first 300? :) Thank you for being here. So much thank you.
Lucky 13, lucky us. Thank you my love for taking the leap, in so many ways, thank you for following your heart, for encouraging and inspiring so many of us to do the same. You are the torch bearer of hope and curiosity and I am so lucky to love you. Happy 13.
No you, no me. No us, no this.
I loved this story but one thing is missing. I want to see the typewriter!
I am so thrilled to hear that you have another book in the works. I love pre-ordering, waiting impatiently, and making a pilgrimage to my local bookstore to pick up a brand-new-to-the-world book. Few things are more exciting.
YOU ARE SO AMAZING. As for the typewriter, your wish is my command. Hold tight...
https://64.media.tumblr.com/dfb6947e5ed1af039005aceac17a7b3d/tumblr_n43rgeCGOZ1qz8rpeo2_r1_640.jpg FOUND ONE!
Yessss! Thank you. It's beautiful.
T.K.G,
I found you on Pinterest and was immediately clicking "pin" for everything you wrote. My Pinterest board for writing & poetry. You have enriched my life. Thank you for sharing your gifts. 🌸
THIS enriches My life. Thank you so much for joining us on this wild ride.
I am very excited for the new book, too! And I will for sure be preordering the second you tell me to.
Your support = such a gift. Truly. Thank you again and again as usual ;)
I have no idea how many of the 13 years I’ve been here but probably most of them. Your words continue to enrich my life to this day. Thank you for taking a chance on your dreams.
Every year you've been here has been a gift to me. Thank you for letting my dreams have the support they've needed.
Happy 13th anniversary! Thank you for sharing as you do. This community is rare & so magical.
And, biggest thanks to Lady G. I love how she encourages you. What a gift
You're so very right, what a gift she is. I love how YOU encourage THIS place. Thank you!
I love the origin story! 💓 You just never know when life is going to throw open a door to a whole new adventure...may we always be wise enough to walk through and may we always be present enough to experience gratitude for each moment. 💫
I'm so glad you loved this :) I fully agree, you never know what will completely rearrange a life. Always go for it.
Tyler, no doubt. My son was just invited to join an elite football ⚽️ academy in England and since it's his dream to play professionally, we're now moving to the UK! Maybe one day he'll play for Liverpool. 😉
Happy 13 years! Your words seem to always be just what we need at the time. I’m so grateful you shared them with us!
Thank you so much! This is such a lovely compliment. Truly.
Just now getting to this as I've been spending less time online this week. Congrats! I'm forever grateful for finding your words and for that leading to your words of encouragement. I would have given up a few times without them. I'll write a poem tonight in your honor. And please be as transparent as possible about the new book. I think most of us don't know what a difference pre-order versus buying after release ect means for an author. Would love to support you in the most effective way.
I am so glad you're here, so glad my words found you when you needed them. I'll absolutely keep you all posted on the book, your support means EVERYTHING.
I finally got the chance to read this! Thank you for all of the detail you put into this essay; I loved feeling like I was right there in Golden Girls with you, at the start, the spark, the ignition of Typewriter Series and everything that has followed. I feel so special to get to share in your journey!! It's so exciting to think about what's in store for you and as soon as you share a pre-order link, I am pre-ordering your book for this fall!
CONGRATULATIONS!!! That is truly one of my favorite poems of ALL TIME!!! I never knew it was the first of the series! That’s incredible. I am so beyond excited to have another one of your books in my hands. The second that baby is announced, I will pre-order it. No question. You’ve changed my life in so many ways. Thank you.