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Gayle Ellison-Davis's avatar

I have always been good at stillness. If not of mind, most certainly of body.

When I was recovering from a new hip this past summer, it took me sometime to watch movies in the middle of the day. I could do not much but sit, so why was it so difficult? Then I got it, between my walks around the house and PT, there came movies. Bollywood to begin with. Then playing some catch up to things I hadn't yet seen ... The Mandalorian, for one. What a joy it was to binge through. [ps. I love that spellchecker corrected Mandalorian!]

So, now, on my days off I sit, meander through some social media, listen to music, and Just sit. It's still hard to turn my brain off. Meditation needs to be guided so that I stay on track. So not so quite there either, really.

I love stillness. My left arm has 'Be Still' tattooed there as a reminder [as I am 'god'/universe] right under an OM. I know what needs to be done, so, most of the time, I do it. Gladly.

Thanks for the reminders, Tyler. <3

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Tyler Knott Gregson's avatar

Ahh Gayle I'm so glad you've got some of this down. You need to teach the rest of us. :)

We're all "not quite there," and I think that's such a beautiful thing.

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Gayle Ellison-Davis's avatar

Thanks Tyler! ... it took a massive nervous breakdown, a weeks hospital stay [talk about being still. it was more like immobilized], 3 more out and inpatient hospital stays, loads of psychiatry [I was SO fortunate to have a psychiatrist in the beginning who listened as much as he prescribed] , and therapy [which I am still in ] as well as meds to get me where I am, and I'm still working on it everyday. I wouldn't wish that upon anyone. That has all been 12 years of practice.

If I can ever be of any assistance to anyone, I'm in.

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