There is another world, I have seen it. Another place right beside this one, clearer, brighter, though wordless, and I know it well. I listen to the animals here, I hear them in their silent offerings, and I understand. I speak to them, too, they listen, they hear, they too understand. They do not nod in response, do not speak out in language of this place we all inhabit and fill with worry and nonsense, anxiety and the inconsequentiality of belongings, of money, of success immeasurable in any method that truly matters. They do not, but they understand, they respond, they know me as I know them.
I’ve not any talents worthy of my own pride, not a single stitch of my being I feel sets me apart from anyone else, save this one thing, this one beautiful thing that is mine, and mine alone, and I wouldn’t give it up for all the other gifts, for all the other measurements of wealth, of success, of power. I speak to animals, animals speak to me, and without a single sound uttered, they know to trust the grace in me, for they know I worship it in them. I talk to animals, and though I cannot promise that I can teach you how to do the same, I can try, and I will tell you what I know. I tell you freely, for they are waiting, they are watching, and they are so confused why we scurry so, the frenzy from so many things that matter so little in the end. Here is how I speak to them, they of fur and feather, scale or hair, winged or slowly stumbling, here is what I know:
To the newborn fawn, hours old calling out in birdlike squeaks for a mother gone foraging, make yourself as small as the wheatgrass she burrows into. Approach slow as Spring’s arrival, and only whisper in hushed tones, repeat the words “it’s ok, it’s ok,” until she lifts her eyes, milky blue moons on the black of space between the starlight. Call her beautiful as she rises to stand beside your legs, two strange trunks of some new tree she does not know, stay with her and show her to a place of more security, far from the paths that people have worn into the hillside, from the dogs that would desecrate the dappled fur she only just introduced to sunshine. Be gentle with your tone, ask her if she’ll lay beside where you sit in the hollow behind the small grove of trees, wait for her to sit, then kneel awkwardly, then curl into a tininess you’ve never before seen. “Goodbye” will be a wordless sound, as she must sleep before you must go, for if she wakes, she will always follow.
To the sly fox that often haunts the yard with her midnight screams, filling the forest behind the window you sleep beneath with banshee wails and sounds so human you doubt your own ears, softness here, too. Wait to lift your eyes to hers, look lower, at the snowy white boots she wears on her paws, to the ground her tiny feet walk upon, but whisper all the while. Call to her with sweet sounds, use only letters that feel gentle, avoid Ks and Qs and hard Ts, Ss work here, almost as though you’re shushing a sleeping child. She will walk in arcs beyond you, and the radius between you will shrink the more comfortable she becomes. Sit in the gloaming and convince yourself of stillness and closer she will creep, closer, until on one triumphant evening just beyond the sunflowers that sprout from seeds dropped, right beside the junipers and sage that plants itself each ear, she will reach, timidly, and take food from your fingertips. The universe offers no stronger compliments to the grace in you, know this, for the fox above all knows survival, and as a human, would never otherwise take such risks. Do not follow when she goes, as something so beautiful demands to stay a mystery.
To the black-eyed raven that visits the feeders, speak not, for they need not the words. Lift your sunglasses from your eyes, and first look to their talons, then to the iridescence that lives in the black of their feathers. Find their eyes, and lock them together, let them study your face in pieces, and let it take the time it needs to take. Offer gifts, always offer gifts, and if you scare them from where they feed, apologize with more. Stay for them to see your hands lower the seeds into the makeshift feeder you crafted out of old wood and a metal screen, let them watch from their pine tree perch, show them your eyes again after completion, for they see you from where they sit. Do this daily, a ritual they will learn what you teach, and visit when they can. One day, one shining day when the cold has lifted and the sun remembers her warmth, maybe, just maybe, they will return with a gift for you, and they will leave it on the railing you lean over to feed them. This is above words, beyond the sentences you’d fumble anyway. This is gratitude from a wild thing, and nothing else speaks of love in this way.
To the skittish dog, once harmed by human hands, once taught of the worst in us, sit, and wait. Tell them you are sorry for the evils that found their way into this species, and offer the palms of your hands to their noses. Do not fear a bite, not a nip from their tender souls, for they know hands as frightening things, as blunt tools that shape gentle creatures into ferocious ones. Let the scent of you be the first to teach them something new, let them come nearer, let them place the soft fur of their chest onto your wrist, and rub the skin beneath their collars, the pieces they cannot reach with claw and scratch. Flinch not when they come closer still, when they trust you enough to put their face against your chest, when they lower their head as if to say, “Please, not you, please, show me it’s not all of you,” and once again allow vulnerability. Hold them with loose arms so they know they can go when they wish to go, and make long pets down their sides. Do not grab, do not linger in one place too long, and be tender with your stroking, as abuse changes the way we feel what we feel, all of us, no matter the skin we wear. Whisper, always whisper, and tell them again and again until their ears perk up from being pinned back, I am sorry, I am sorry, I am sorry.
To the big spider crawling across your ceiling, then setting an anchor web, and falling through space towards the places you’re sitting, be patient, and marvel at the silk they spin. Speak to them like long lost friend, for they appreciate casual conversation more than most creatures I know. “You’re alright dude,” “I got you buddy,” “you’re gorgeous man,” and any other forms of communication you’d reserve for someone you surf with, skateboard with, or know to be laid back friends. They speak, too, but their voices are so small our ears cannot translate the words, but I know them to be this. Find any paper you can find, and let them crawl atop it. Do not force them, do not push or slide the paper beneath their tiny legs, let them come in their own time, and walk slow once they do. Find a houseplant with ample leaves and soil not too soaked or saturated, and wait for them to dismount, to explore their new surroundings. If the weather is beautiful and warm enough for their outdoor survival, bring them out and let them free out beyond where scared hands will crush the life from them. Wish them well, wherever you place them, and tell them you’ll see them around.
There are a billion creatures, a billion conversations waiting to happen. The thread that unites them all, that ties them together in their desires from us, is a simple one:
They just wish us to be softer, they just wish us to be kind.
Start here, and find your way. Start here, and show them that from some of us, they have nothing to fear.
We’ve not the grace they do, but if we strip away our harshness, we can try. We can try.
Whisper in soft voice
for they speak not in harshness,
they know only grace.
Tyler, thank you for once again demonstrating that words we allow into our heads bring deeper insight in our world. May we use alliteration to highlight you as the “whisperer of the wild”? Right now, I am sitting on my back porch this morning watching a young mother and her fawn nip on wild honeysuckle leaves as they slowly start to make their rounds in the woodland preserve next to my home. And if one were to write about this scene, they could reflect on the quiet and approachable nature of this scene. Or they could note the alertness of the young mother to sounds of threats and the boundless energy and curiosity of the fawn. Either would be a accurate description. Yet, while witnessing both is a gift, after reading this essay (and outstanding haiku) I appreciate (even if i cannot replicate it) your gift for communication with nature, as a conversation enhances any scene more than just a description or photo can. Good conversation brings context to what we clearly witness. And that helps to elevate our understanding and appreciation of it all. Yeah. Good stuff. If we engage and allow it.
Kevin, thank you for being open to the healing power of words, and for believing mine worthy of that. Whisperer of the Wild is now my favorite thing anyone's ever called me haha. I want to put it on a t-shirt, or a business card, or everything. Thank you for this.
I have to work today. So I’m up early and listening to this in the shower. I have the best shower view into my little jungle and the most beautiful fiery Baltimore Oriole came to visit me while listening to this! They are migratory and so I don’t see them very often! I always welcome them back as wonder about their journey! I think he also liked the sound of your voice perhaps!
Also even before you mentioned them I was apologizing to my spiders as I removed their egg sacs from my ceiling. I do it with remorse and it makes me feel bad so see her sadness. But it’s the balance we have to keep.
On Friday I got to visit my favourite goat. He’s super Emo and everyone thinks he’s really mean because he has huge horns. But not me. I know the spot in between those horns that when you rub it, he melts away that gruff exterior and is like a little puppy!
We cannot be so vain as to think we are the only ones who can share our thoughts and emotions. Always remember to talk to the animals and maybe they can teach us something if we learn to listen.
Ah Heather, the intentionality of all you do is so felt. The fact that you feel the sadness when moving the eggs. I understand, and I believe somewhere, she might too. We are so very much not the only ones who can share what we feel, in fact, we might be one of the worst At it. Still we'll try.
A couple of years ago, I read the book Rooted by Lyanda Lynn Haupt.
One of the things that stood out to me is she wrote about reciprocity- how if we spend time in the home of animals, it’s only fair and a part of nature to become food for mosquitoes.
I don’t think anyone is thrilled at the idea of mosquito bites, but it did leave me with a really cool perspective on the balance of giving and taking. Since then I’ve really tried to think about what I offer to the natural world around me, especially as I seek to become more conscious of what it offers me.
Oooh, adding this book to the list. I agree about the mosquitoes, I just wish I wasn't so allergic and get so very swollen. Still I won't swat them, I won't kill them. And I love this balance. I love that you see it.
I loved reading this! This is a superpower I always wished for, growing up; to be able to legit talk to animals. Until the superpower universe bestows that magical ability upon me, Thai kind of unspoken communication of gestures, body language, facial expressions is the next best thing.
When I was.... Probably 13/14 years old, I was lucky enough to be close to a mama deer and her young, on a mild winter day. It was a family that passed by my parents' recreational home often. I decided to take some seeds in my hand and stand with them in my palm, arm outstretched to its fullest, and stood as still as I could. It took 45 minutes, and my arm was on fire, but one deer brushed its ear against my hand and another are from my palm. It was a glorious moment that I will cherish forever!
I loved your tips on connection for all of the animals in your email.... Except, to the spiders. I know it's a flaw since all creation is important, but I have been wronged by them too many times!! If my husband is home, he'll happily relocate the spider but they are NOT allowed in my home. If I am home alone and it's not too terrifying of a spider and I have the ability to trap it for my husband to later take outside, then I do so. But I have also been known to squash them or vacuum them (especially if they are ones that threaten the safety of myself, my kid, or my pets!) I applaud you for upholding your gentleness and respect to the arachnid community though!
Sometimes, Some some times, I can hear them truly. Not just with gestures, not just with expressions, but with actual words spoken without sound. I don't know how else to describe it. Work on the spider thing, truly, see them as curious, as survivors, as those who have no wish to harm you, and all things change. They are adorable if you get close enough, each species so different. Try, for me?
This is your Opus.
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Oi, Mr. Holland.
We have rules, Mister.
1) happy birthday, my love.
---> a cockie (cockatoo)
& a (not flamin') galah.
You are in so much trouble.
You & Lady G.
Because I've been osmosis-ing & photosynthesisng at your typewriter since about the time Death Cab taught me the sound of settling.
2) this is my Church.
Thank you.
3) thanks for being the Tumnus to my lil' Lucy. You're a Mensch x
"This is my Church" might be the best thing ever. Thank you so much for this.
Also, can you PLEASE just leave that as a review of this place, so I can share it wide? It's my favorite.
In a jiffy, Chief!
Eh, I'm okay x
Thank You for being such a kind human ambassador to the wilds, and for transmitting these precious moments to us with your beautifully crafted words.
Ahhh best compliment ever. Thank you, thank you so much.
THAT is beautiful. I have no words. Just a glow.
You're too kind. I felt the glow writing it, that's how passionate I am about all things that live.
This entire thing is one giant heart melt. 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲
And this comment makes mine do the same. :)